Tuesday, June 07, 2005
Why do I do what I do.
Even right now that I'm sitted in front of the school computer, I still do not understand the reason that got me out of the house. To be frank, I really did want to miss all the lessons I have today. And yes, I missed Physics. A subject I should not have missed at all. Pfff.
I received a message at 1.13pm of why I did not turn up for Physics lesson. And I hate my whereabouts being reported. TOTALLY. It's like, I do not have a privacy of MY own? Though I once said that I feel secure because I know at least somebody knows what I'm doing, I feel totally vulnerable now. See the big difference? Days that I am absent, naps that I took during examination, attitude shown in class are all being reported or commented. Can't you guys just stop prying into my privacy and the things I do when you guys know nuts about me?! I am mad about this!
And because of this, I have become very cautious towards my surrounding, towards the people I talk to, and the things I do. Sometimes it just make me think that poeple around me cannot be trusted with. Words that comes out from my mouth were being filtered first, and the actions I do I have to think of the comments that follow after.
Now, I enjoy being left alone and not be touched in school. I like to isolate myself from people who don't know me well. Because if I don't do this, I will lose myself in time to come. So, all I ask now is to GIVE ME BACK MY PRIVACY. They don't belong to you!
maoed.]
at 1:19 PM
+++His child.
jiayi; jean. 060488// hope// sound ministry// neb1// grace's sheep// phs// 5compassion// basketball//
+++smiles.
Him// simpsonx// shuping// red.black.white// eight// violin// guitar// disney// animals// kids// adidas// bottoms// horror::thrillers// watermelon// peach// mango// tomato// tea// fish// white chocs// marshmellows// shopping// friendships
+++frowns.
noise// dirtiness// chili// pork// snake// comedies// thunders// lightnings//
+++memories.
chalet//
courageous camp//
devotees//
devotees`bbq//
faith camp//
firework`04//
foundation camp//
life in the kingdom//
neb//
phs`03//
phs'04//
seventeen//
siMpsOnx//
student conference//
the ultimate dare//
+++books.
a love worth giving// a woman's answer to anger// every young woman's battle// helping others without hurting yourself// journeys of friendship//
if you want to walk on water, you've got to get out of the boat// in the grip of grace// love beyond reason// loving God with all your mind// recapture the world//
the friendship's of women// traveling light// wild at heart// words that hurt words that heal//
